“Can we be done with this experiment?”
“There’s nothing to eat.”
“Do we have to have chicken AGAIN? That’s all we ever eat!”
Then I find out from our friend TC that RR’s BF want’s to send him a bag of Cheetos in a care package because he is suffering soooo much. Apparently RR told his BF that we aren’t buying any more food and he is starving.
This past week we learned that being less dependant on the grocery store requires EFFORT. It is possible to have things that are just as convenient, and often better tasting, and certainly better for you, but you have to plan ahead, and put in the time so those things are ready. Much of what is required is new habits. THAT is a PAINFUL process.
We have been making all our own bread for a couple of months now. We love it, especially the bagels (which we have for breakfast almost every morning.) But if we don’t pay attention to what we have, what we need, etc., we run out, and it takes more than just a 5 minute trip to the store fix the problem. It isn’t that much more effort than shopping (less for me, shopping gives me hives), but it is different effort.
Challenges this past week have been in the area of snacks. Besides the occasional Cheeto we love crackers, cheese, olives, chips, etc. Often lunch is an antipasto, salad, and a baguette. Finding ways to produce these here, or local sources for them is a big challenge. Finding alternatives, learning new habits of eating and thinking is an even bigger challenge.
There are other habits that we are beginning to grapple with too. Some are habits of living. We are learning to be more militant about turning things off, turning temperatures down, putting on an extra sweater, etc. We are learning other things to do with our time. (We canceled our cable service. $50.00+ a month for 15 minutes of news and 4 hours of mindless drivel suddenly seemed like a giant waste. Now we listen to NPR more, get better news coverage, and spend more time reading, playing games together, etc. It was rather painful to make that change. None of us realized how addicted to the box we had become.)
Some of the habits we are struggling with are habits of thought. These are harder to fix. Much of our struggle with being less dependant comes from conflicts with these habits.
- We have to work, what would the family/neighbors/church/friends/etc think if they knew we were just staying home?
- We have to work for a company so we can have insurance. (We have only been to the doctor 3 times in the last 5 years (touch wood) and have spent $32500.00 on insurance coverage. Not saying we don’t need insurance, things happen suddenly ,I know. But maybe there is a way to approach it differently. It will take a different mind set for sure.)
- FEAR. There is a certain amount of changing how you live that requires letting go and doing something different. It’s like tightrope walking. If you cling to, or focus on, or reach back for the platform, you fall. The only way to walk the rope is to commit 100%, let go, and walk. (Sounds good, but it is hard to do.)
What habits of thought or action are holding you back?